Cat was telling me a story about how some of the kids she teaches act when they lose their gloves. She spends 15 minutes with them trying to find their gloves but the kids are still frantic and worry how upset their mother is going to be.
I think about that feeling... 10-year-old me, worrying how upset my parents will be once they find out how I've failed to live up to their expectations. Are there things/circumstances that emulate a similar feeling today? It might not be that I'm worried about my parent's expectations, but it might be more that I am upset about breaking my own. For example, if I lock myself out of my apartment there is a steep fee to get let back in. I'd be upset at myself for not remembering such a simple task.
But, when I think about it, this feeling is trivial. It doesn't push you to strive for something nor does it lead you to figuring something out. Meaning needs to be attached selectively and not passively belonging to the ebb and flow of life's experiences.
Wednesday Standard Volume 12
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